Sorry peoples... I feel like I have fallen off the face of the earth! I haven't been keeping up with anything. Work, home it all goes into overdrive at the same time doesn't it. Elise I have been a bad girl. I have not kept up with what is going on with you. I am onto your blog in the next moment to see how you've been. Tina, I was going to check out your page but it is not available for viewing. I wanted to thank you for the comment on my last poem. It's good to see there are other people out there with common interests. Maybe I could look at some of your photographs sometime.

Love to all
Keriam

NEBRASKA TRIP

NOTHING MORE

Nothing more than a picture on a page
A vision in my head
A whisper in my ear
A hole in my heart

I need you so much
Your laughter
Your look
Your touch

I’ve created you to soothe my soul
To comfort me in my loneliness
To be a companion in my happiness
And in turn created a trap for myself

Because….
You are nothing more than a picture on a page
A vision in my head
A whisper in my ear
A hole in my heart


(c)2008 K. Brown all rights reserved

TIN MAN


The Tin man is standing against the wind.
Protecting me from its grasp.
This man of tin with a body so strong.
A heart that’s been hurt has a golden clasp.

He carries me away with arms of steel.
Hiding me from a world that’s so harsh.
Eyes that are sharp like the blade of a knife.
They reflect the hurt that’s decided his life.

Tin man do you see me with those eyes that show hurt?
Do you feel me with those cold steel arms?
Can I pierce the armor that you have created?
The armor that protects you from all the worlds harms.

I know what the world can do to a soul.
I know what deep chasms can quickly unfold.
I know that I love you even though you don’t show,
That there are feelings inside of your body so cold.

Let me warm you and show you there can be love.
Let me soften your eyes that keep focused above.
Please look down on me now and show me you care.
I so want to touch you and make you aware.

(c)2007 K. Brown all rights reserved

Thanks for the input guys. I have decided to have a slimfast for breakfast and do salads with veggies and tofu for a meal and to cut out the starches all together.

Your right about the water Elise. I can always tell that I feel better when I drink more water. Yes she is way more than odd but I can say that there is no blood connection thank God! She is married to my step brother.

Linda thanks for the tips. I just bought a Tai Chi excercise kit. I am hoping that it will do me some good. I know about the left overs what you say is very logical I just have a hard time getting my southern heritage under control. My grandmother wasted nothing and it has sadly become a part of who I am.

I'm looking to shed about 20 pounds all together but am hoping to get rid of at least 5 pounds maybe 8 in the next two weeks. I've done it before with the South Beach diet but I just don't have time to prepare every single meal like they want you to.

Toodles and Happy Holidays for now Keriam

New Year's resolution

Man! These last few days have been a blur. I am trying to finish up my Christmas shopping and it doesn't seem to be as fun this year as in the past. I guess I have a case of the Bah Hum bugs. I haven't been out doing any photography lately and it's killing me. I love being behind a camera lens. Anybody out there have Rat Terriers? They are like little kids. I have one tucked under my arm right now as I am trying to type.

I need ideas from all the chicks out there. Here's why. I am from the south and I have a sister in law who is the typical Snotty, too much make-up wearing, size-u-up when you walk in the door bitch. She is so stereotypical. She sells Mary Kay and real estate. Has a little Min Pin that she values more than human life and treats everyone else like they are her personal maids. (I'm sure most of you know the type). I swear Scarlett O'hara herself would be embarrassed by this "woman's"(and I use the term woman very, very loosely)attitude. Any way, I want to look my best when I go to my mom's for Christmas Holiday. I'm looking to take off a few pounds before the trip. I got the hair in check and the make-up is looking good but Thanksgiving was not kind to me. I love to cook and I love to eat even more. My daughter and I cooked Thanksgiving dinner just for the two of us and of course we cooked for 4 so we felt obligated to eat it all. You know nothing should go to waste.

Does anyone have any weight loss suggestions? Can't do the exercise thing the sprained ankle I got a week ago still looks terrible and I have a Muscle disease on top of that so weight bearing /lifting exercise "ain't" gonna happen. You know no one would ever look at me and know that anything was wrong with me. What I have is genetic and we didn't know I had it until I was almost 30. I don't dwell on it but I just can't do some things that others take for granted. Maybe I'll write about it sometime but anyhoo back to my weight loss situation. I'm not fat but am not used to weighing as much as I do now and would like to take about 15 pounds off. Walking is good I had started doing that before the sprain. Any help anyone could give would be great.

On a different note my neighbor/slash coworker is starting to get a little too close for comfort. He has started invading my personal space when he talks to me. Every time he is about to say something to me he will lean into my face until he is about 6 inches away and the worst part is his breath always smells. Not knock you out smell but activate the gag reflex smell. Why is it we never have the courage to tell the ones we know best when they have something like that going on? We let people walk around with green in their teeth and toilet paper hanging out of their pants. I have told him before don't hug me, don't touch me, just talk that's it and limit what you say to me. I don't want any too personal, make me uncomfortable conversation. He is so head over heels. I don't understand it. I am always borderline bitchy to him trying to get him to back off and it never works. He just takes it and doesn't seem to mind.

I really miss intimacy like some sort of relationship. I have told you guys in earlier posts what my marriage has come to. It isn't marriage anymore. I would just like to know that I still got it I guess but not from my neighbor who is married with 3 very small kids and looks like a cross between Barney Fife and Gilligan. Plus I've been on the receiving end of cheating before and I don't think he ever would cheat on his wife but don't want to be the source of any conflict.
I like the idea of independence but would love to have some companionship. You know someone to talk to and laugh with. Someone to hold hands with and go on adventures with. I don't think I would want to step into the marriage thing any time soon.

I'm going home for the holidays. My son went with his dad over Thanksgiving to go visit his family. Now I am taking the kids to see my family for Christmas. It is my jumping off point. I've decided things are going to be different starting Jan. 1st. New look, new outlook. Hopefully with the new year comes a brighter future. It will if I have anything to do with it.

This is my New Year's Resolution. To be on the outside the person that I am on the inside.
No more keeping me trapped inside from now on my little light's gonna shine bright.

Leave Your Mark

Standing atop this Earth that turns
While rapidly our life still burns

Robotically walking our path so plain
To only ourselves we cast the blame

Now is the time to cross the line
Move out of mundane into sublime

Don't leave a legacy of nothing done
Show the future what they can become

It's never too late to make this move
Don't waste more time for there's none to lose

(c)2007 K. Brown all rights reserved