You promised me you loved me.
You brought me into your life.
My heart flourished within your love.
We took our vows and I became your wife.
As time went by you began to change.
Your love turned into hate.
Your angry words cut me to the core.
The end of life I began to wait.
I tried my best to make things work.
Everything I tried to no avail.
You coldness burns my heart to ash.
The lid on my coffin you’ll never nail.
I take the pain and tears you’ve caused.
I’ll use them to make me smarter.
The path you’ve taken is now yours alone.
The path I follow leads me much farther.
(c)2007 K. Brown all rights reserved
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Tuesday, October 23, 2007
CLOSE YOUR EYES
AND HEAR THIS:
THE BREEZE FLOWING THRU THE AGED PINE TREES
THE CICADAS SINGING THEIR HYPNOTIC LULLABY
THE WAVES LAPPING AT THE DOCKS STRONG LEGS
THE BOB WHITE WOOING HIS LOVE
AND SEE THIS:
THE SUN PEEKING BETWEEN THE OAK TREE’S ARMS
THE HAWK DANCING CIRCLES IN THE SKY
THE PINE TREES SWAYING IN TIME TO THE WIND’S PEACEFUL SONG
THE WATER SHIMMERING LIKE STARS TWINKLING IN THE NIGHT SKY
AND FEEL THIS:
THE WRINKLED AND PARCHED PLANKS OF THE DECK ON YOUR FEET
THE COOL WATER AS IT FLOWS ACROSS YOUR HAND
THE SWEAT AS IT SLIDES DOWN THE HOLLOW OF YOUR BACK
THE BREEZE AS IT TEASES THE MOISTURE ON YOUR BODY
ENJOY ONE DAY OF MY LIFE
(c)2007 K. Brown all rights reserved
AND HEAR THIS:
THE BREEZE FLOWING THRU THE AGED PINE TREES
THE CICADAS SINGING THEIR HYPNOTIC LULLABY
THE WAVES LAPPING AT THE DOCKS STRONG LEGS
THE BOB WHITE WOOING HIS LOVE
AND SEE THIS:
THE SUN PEEKING BETWEEN THE OAK TREE’S ARMS
THE HAWK DANCING CIRCLES IN THE SKY
THE PINE TREES SWAYING IN TIME TO THE WIND’S PEACEFUL SONG
THE WATER SHIMMERING LIKE STARS TWINKLING IN THE NIGHT SKY
AND FEEL THIS:
THE WRINKLED AND PARCHED PLANKS OF THE DECK ON YOUR FEET
THE COOL WATER AS IT FLOWS ACROSS YOUR HAND
THE SWEAT AS IT SLIDES DOWN THE HOLLOW OF YOUR BACK
THE BREEZE AS IT TEASES THE MOISTURE ON YOUR BODY
ENJOY ONE DAY OF MY LIFE
(c)2007 K. Brown all rights reserved
Monday, October 22, 2007
Hey Guys
Okay, I think everybody has a post where they are down so here is mine.
My marriage SUCKS!!!
My job SUCKS!!!
I'm BROKE!!!
Whew! I feel better.
I am super lonely though. My marriage has turned into a co-existense of two individuals who happen to have two kids together. I haven't gotten a divorce yet because there happens to be really no reason to. I am not emotionally attached to anyone else and it happens to be convenient for now. For both of us. I'm not cold hearted we both feel the same way. He cheated on me and regrets it but we both feel like we have come to an end as far as our marriage goes.
My job really isn't that bad. It pays the bills and allows me to live my life relatively like I want to. Right now we are still combining both of our incomes so that helps. Once I am out on my own it will be somewhat tighter but I don't care freedom counts for alot.
I have a great family that is very supportive of me and that means everything to me. They are very non-judgemental. There is no pressure they want to just be happy and for the kids to be happy.
By the way, I really need to have you guys give me some input on my last post.
Hard-Suck, Oh yeah, I didn't tell you about him did I? He is the newest edition to my team. He is officially an idiot. My job requires that we stay on top of things. Manufacturing is pretty fast paced. He seems to not understand this point. I have come to the cynical realization that I blame everything on him whether he is around or not. If it is something wrong he did it as far as I'm concerned. Slugs move faster than he does and his brain processes information at the speed of diamonds being formed. Everyday I work we all lay bets on what utterly stupid thing he is going to do or say during the shift. We call him hard suck because he did one of those homemade tattoo things on his hands and one letter per finger spells out h-a-r-d _-u-c-k. We are all guessing that the 1st letter on the second hand is an l but it is all messed up and looks like an s. Hence the name hard suck. I wish everyone knew the ins and outs of paper manufacturing then I could relate some specific storys and ya'll would understand what I was talking about. Given that most people don't I won't bore you with the details.
God I hate feeling lonely. Okay, okay. No more pity party. I'm am going to go read some of Chris or Neal's stuff they always make me laugh uncontrollably.
Ta Ta for now.
(c)2007 K. Brown all rights reserved
Okay, I think everybody has a post where they are down so here is mine.
My marriage SUCKS!!!
My job SUCKS!!!
I'm BROKE!!!
Whew! I feel better.
I am super lonely though. My marriage has turned into a co-existense of two individuals who happen to have two kids together. I haven't gotten a divorce yet because there happens to be really no reason to. I am not emotionally attached to anyone else and it happens to be convenient for now. For both of us. I'm not cold hearted we both feel the same way. He cheated on me and regrets it but we both feel like we have come to an end as far as our marriage goes.
My job really isn't that bad. It pays the bills and allows me to live my life relatively like I want to. Right now we are still combining both of our incomes so that helps. Once I am out on my own it will be somewhat tighter but I don't care freedom counts for alot.
I have a great family that is very supportive of me and that means everything to me. They are very non-judgemental. There is no pressure they want to just be happy and for the kids to be happy.
By the way, I really need to have you guys give me some input on my last post.
Hard-Suck, Oh yeah, I didn't tell you about him did I? He is the newest edition to my team. He is officially an idiot. My job requires that we stay on top of things. Manufacturing is pretty fast paced. He seems to not understand this point. I have come to the cynical realization that I blame everything on him whether he is around or not. If it is something wrong he did it as far as I'm concerned. Slugs move faster than he does and his brain processes information at the speed of diamonds being formed. Everyday I work we all lay bets on what utterly stupid thing he is going to do or say during the shift. We call him hard suck because he did one of those homemade tattoo things on his hands and one letter per finger spells out h-a-r-d _-u-c-k. We are all guessing that the 1st letter on the second hand is an l but it is all messed up and looks like an s. Hence the name hard suck. I wish everyone knew the ins and outs of paper manufacturing then I could relate some specific storys and ya'll would understand what I was talking about. Given that most people don't I won't bore you with the details.
God I hate feeling lonely. Okay, okay. No more pity party. I'm am going to go read some of Chris or Neal's stuff they always make me laugh uncontrollably.
Ta Ta for now.
(c)2007 K. Brown all rights reserved
Sunday, October 14, 2007
It's been a few days since my last post. My son did well in soccer and my daughter is a true butt kicker in every sense of the word. I finally have a weekend to my self. No work, no soccer, no tae kwon do. Just me and the computer. I have been getting a kick out of Elise's detecting in her office. Makes my day. I also get a kick out of Chris's http://customerssuck.blogspot.com/ and Neal's http://nealwroberts.blogspot.com/ .
I worked customer service for quite a while and truly sympathize.
My job is just as screwed up. I have a guy that think's he's God's gift to women and regales us all with stories of his multiple conquest while he takes his smoke break. We'll call him the dreamer. I work with a guy that looks like Mr. Bean. He can't walk anywhere unless he's balls to the walls and talks to himself. He has to have one hand in a pocket and his other hand out shaking his finger at nothing. He also will clap 3 times in a row. What for I don't know. He we will name Mr. Bean for obvious reasons. There is one other woman besides me on my team. She is the monitor of everyone else's business. I'll call her Mrs. Potato head because she not only has eyes in the back of her head but all over it so that she can catch someone doing something wrong at any given time.
Recently Dreamer wanted to play a little gag on some of the crew that works on the operating line next to ours so he put some grease on their computer mouse. Well their manager happened to be the one who found it. The hard way. Needless to say, he didn't appreciate it. He took it upon himself to find and crucify the person that did it. Well of all the times to run his mouth about something this was it. But would he. Noooo. He hung us all out to dry. Luckily for the rest of us, the intent of the corrective action system is not to punish everyone for a suspicion but one person for a fact. I would love to have some input on how to pay dreamer back for his yellow back. Comment away and I'll pick the best one and let you all know what happens.
(c)2007 K. Brown all rights reserved
I worked customer service for quite a while and truly sympathize.
My job is just as screwed up. I have a guy that think's he's God's gift to women and regales us all with stories of his multiple conquest while he takes his smoke break. We'll call him the dreamer. I work with a guy that looks like Mr. Bean. He can't walk anywhere unless he's balls to the walls and talks to himself. He has to have one hand in a pocket and his other hand out shaking his finger at nothing. He also will clap 3 times in a row. What for I don't know. He we will name Mr. Bean for obvious reasons. There is one other woman besides me on my team. She is the monitor of everyone else's business. I'll call her Mrs. Potato head because she not only has eyes in the back of her head but all over it so that she can catch someone doing something wrong at any given time.
Recently Dreamer wanted to play a little gag on some of the crew that works on the operating line next to ours so he put some grease on their computer mouse. Well their manager happened to be the one who found it. The hard way. Needless to say, he didn't appreciate it. He took it upon himself to find and crucify the person that did it. Well of all the times to run his mouth about something this was it. But would he. Noooo. He hung us all out to dry. Luckily for the rest of us, the intent of the corrective action system is not to punish everyone for a suspicion but one person for a fact. I would love to have some input on how to pay dreamer back for his yellow back. Comment away and I'll pick the best one and let you all know what happens.
(c)2007 K. Brown all rights reserved
Wishing
Pull me down into your world.
Wrap me up with your life.
Drink the tears upon my face.
Drain the sorrow from my soul.
Fill me up with warm desire.
Teach me things I do not know.
Caress my heart with your sweet touch.
Please don’t take your love from me.
(c)2007 K. Brown all rights reserved
Wrap me up with your life.
Drink the tears upon my face.
Drain the sorrow from my soul.
Fill me up with warm desire.
Teach me things I do not know.
Caress my heart with your sweet touch.
Please don’t take your love from me.
(c)2007 K. Brown all rights reserved
Monday, October 8, 2007
DREAMS
Darkness falls in the recesses of my mind.
Mists circle and brew, creating figures behind my eyes.
Echos of peace and serenity flowing just beyond my reach.
This is the world that I love, that I never want to leave.
It wraps me in it's warmth, protecting me from harsh reality. Calming all my senses giving me pleasure beyond all belief.
My strength lies within this world. It flows through my veins like hot lava coursing down a mountain.
Laughing uncontrollably, running wildly, soaring to the heavens.
It is my own voice crying out against the tidal way of panic that
lights the way for reality to invade my mind.
Sun light peeks into the corners of my eyes,
washing away the last remnants of my mystic world.
Showing reality the path back into my mind.
Ushering in the callous stares of all those who live without dreams.
(c)2007 K. Brown all rights reserved
Mists circle and brew, creating figures behind my eyes.
Echos of peace and serenity flowing just beyond my reach.
This is the world that I love, that I never want to leave.
It wraps me in it's warmth, protecting me from harsh reality. Calming all my senses giving me pleasure beyond all belief.
My strength lies within this world. It flows through my veins like hot lava coursing down a mountain.
Laughing uncontrollably, running wildly, soaring to the heavens.
Time passes too quickly here. Without warning, I feel the rush of reality drowning out the world that I have created. Melting the edges of my dreams like crayons in the hot sun.
Whisperings of fear brushing against my ears.It is my own voice crying out against the tidal way of panic that
lights the way for reality to invade my mind.
Sun light peeks into the corners of my eyes,
washing away the last remnants of my mystic world.
Showing reality the path back into my mind.
Ushering in the callous stares of all those who live without dreams.
(c)2007 K. Brown all rights reserved
Friday, October 5, 2007
SNOW
Snow, so soft and beautifully white.
Shimmering in the sun, calling me out.
Snow, so deceiving, hiding things under it's blanket.
Wet and cold, all kinds of dark dirty secrets below it's surface.
Hope is the brother of snow.
A delightful figure in your mind.
Beckoning you forward one ginger step at a time.
Promising happy endings and reality to your dreams.
Hope is deceiving, a suave demon whose hypnotic eyes
lure you forward only to sting and bite scarring the surface of your soul.
His icy steel fingers finding purchase over your heart,
tearing and ripping, caustic laughter ringing in your ears.
Ceaseless pain going deeper and deeper until satisfied by your
involuntary screams.
Snow covering those screams, muffling the sound of your voice
so no one hears the agony leaping from your soul.
Brothers working in dark harmony.
(c)2007 K. Brown all rights reserved
Shimmering in the sun, calling me out.
Snow, so deceiving, hiding things under it's blanket.
Wet and cold, all kinds of dark dirty secrets below it's surface.
Hope is the brother of snow.
A delightful figure in your mind.
Beckoning you forward one ginger step at a time.
Promising happy endings and reality to your dreams.
Hope is deceiving, a suave demon whose hypnotic eyes
lure you forward only to sting and bite scarring the surface of your soul.
His icy steel fingers finding purchase over your heart,
tearing and ripping, caustic laughter ringing in your ears.
Ceaseless pain going deeper and deeper until satisfied by your
involuntary screams.
Snow covering those screams, muffling the sound of your voice
so no one hears the agony leaping from your soul.
Brothers working in dark harmony.
(c)2007 K. Brown all rights reserved
Introducing myself
So I finally started a blog of my own. Didn't ever think I would want to do that but sometimes you just have to have a place to go where you can talk and be yourself without any ridicule from the people who are supposed to love you most.
Enough about that.
I am in my late 30's and feel like I haven't begun to live life yet. I love photography(hobby level only). I love my computer(keeps me in touch with the world and my games). I love animals(I have a cat and 3 dogs). I love the outdoors(born and raised down south in the country). Those are the simple things that tell part of who I am and what I'm all about.
I used to write in journals alot so there will probably be times when I just post a poem or something and not anything about my day. Just depends on my mood.
Today I'm packing to go to a soccer tournament this weekend for my teenage son. My daughter(also a teenager) takes Tai Kwon Do and will have a tournament of her own next weekend luckily it will be local and I won't have to travel over the weekend. I'm glad I had my kids while I was young so I will still be able to enjoy myself when they are out on their own. I guess that's why I feel like I really haven't lived yet though. It took some of my youth away from me to be a mom so early on.
I have a picture of Ireland on my blog. I really would love to move there someday. My family history tracks back there. I have a cousin who lives there now. She has for about 20 years. Just below Dublin in a church she restored and made into her home. She has a daughter who's a gymnastic superstar. Glenda and Gaia have come back and forth for visits but I haven't ever made it there to visit. Maybe when the kiddies are in college and I have a life of my own again.
Well back to packing. Then I'm off to root for my baby boy!
(c)2007 K. Brown all rights reserved
Enough about that.
I am in my late 30's and feel like I haven't begun to live life yet. I love photography(hobby level only). I love my computer(keeps me in touch with the world and my games). I love animals(I have a cat and 3 dogs). I love the outdoors(born and raised down south in the country). Those are the simple things that tell part of who I am and what I'm all about.
I used to write in journals alot so there will probably be times when I just post a poem or something and not anything about my day. Just depends on my mood.
Today I'm packing to go to a soccer tournament this weekend for my teenage son. My daughter(also a teenager) takes Tai Kwon Do and will have a tournament of her own next weekend luckily it will be local and I won't have to travel over the weekend. I'm glad I had my kids while I was young so I will still be able to enjoy myself when they are out on their own. I guess that's why I feel like I really haven't lived yet though. It took some of my youth away from me to be a mom so early on.
I have a picture of Ireland on my blog. I really would love to move there someday. My family history tracks back there. I have a cousin who lives there now. She has for about 20 years. Just below Dublin in a church she restored and made into her home. She has a daughter who's a gymnastic superstar. Glenda and Gaia have come back and forth for visits but I haven't ever made it there to visit. Maybe when the kiddies are in college and I have a life of my own again.
Well back to packing. Then I'm off to root for my baby boy!
(c)2007 K. Brown all rights reserved
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